clearly im very very very boreddd.
and very very very tired from i d k whatever i do today,
or maybe yesterday but whatever.

i had a napp today.
because last night i slept at 3am.
well not really.
i swear i was tossing and turning on th bed to get
myself to sleep.
haha, well i was forced to go to sleep
by this guy because its alrd 3am!
haha.
okeh this guy is Shafiq,clearly

i've been watching 5(?) movies lately.
or more?
haha,i d k.
just to kill time.
and its th only way to spend time with myself.
or i will be SO SUPER busyyyyyyy entertaining everything that revolves
around me.

and now, i want to kill time to.
just to wait till 10pm.
its 09:37pm no 09:38pm now.

i have school on monday.
*sighs.
responsibilities.
goddd,im starting to wonder what kind of leader i am.
i just want to get this over and done with.
YES!
BADDDDLY,please? :D

i watched Peterpan just now.
haha.
i has been my favourite since god knows when.
haaaah.
no since i was little.
then i dont really watch it that much or have much interest in it
as y'know, im growing up.
but yea.
childhooood. . .

school is next week.
friday.
EEP!
i d k if im looking forward to 2009 or NOT.
because it will be O's and yea, that will be my new boyfriend
for next year. D:
because i will soon be spending more time with mr O's rather than
whatever that revolve ard me.
*MEGA sighsssssss.
im so gonna start mug mug mugging.
HARD CORE! :D

i got like fifteeeeen more minutes to kill time.

ohhhhhhhhh!
tmr will be AFF Suzuki Cup Finals 2 Leg!
EEP! :D
again Thailand vs. Vietnam.
im so praying hard for Thailand.
goddd,please.
make a miracle tomorrow.
i want thailand to win. (:
gonna watch.
though i have school th next day.
yeaaaaaaaaaa.

i got a little sensitive during this holidays.
okeh no.
very very very sensitive.
i have NO idea why.
i mean just reading something it can like i d k, touched me.
uhhhh.
so not me.
haha. (:



picture, ages agooooooooo.

I MISS MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ ANAK RUSLI! D:

haha.
i got ten minutes moreee.

my back ache alot this few dayss.
i dont know why.
i cant really stand for so long.
sit for so long.
like what am i suppose to do thennnnnn?
still, it hurts like a hell much much much much.
i got this CHIROPRACTIC thingy that kindda give me another hope
that i could get a straight backbone after that.
but when i show mum th brochure.
she just chuck it away. D:
doesnt she know i badly want a straight backbone.
because i cant do loads of things when i grow up with Scoliosis.
its like being crippled and ugly.
and i hate it.
i badly badly badly want a straight backbone.
because i want to be normal.
NORMAL.
i know this kind of stuff cost a lot.
but i d k,i just think that this kind of investment
it benefits me in th long run.
i heard cases of scoliosis.
i told mum about it.
she said it was all nonsense.
even th doctors said those cases could happen.
i guess i have to start saving.
and invest my own money for my own treatment.
a n w,mum and dad have so much to think about.
so i leave them with their stuff.
i know i have determination.
im gonna have a straight backbone,without those scary operations.

i have five more minutes.
am i tearing?
hah,no.
i just want that so badly now.
so so so so badly.

i should go now (:
its almost time and i need th toilet urgently.
haha.

so toodlessss.

things are so much different now.
i dont know if its for th better or worst.
but im prepared for both.
or NOT.
but whatever comes what may.
you'll always earn this special place in my heart.
maybe you are right.
have faith,fate will decide and hope for th best.

give me back history.
i miss it.

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last change to feel again

}Broken Strings
James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado

SINGAPORE 0, VIETNAM 1

yes!
i went to watch th AFF Suzuki Cup 2008 Semi-Finals (2nd Leg) at th national stadium!
YO! LIVE!
ENVY ME! :D
Grandstand lagi uhhhhhh!
watch it with mum dad and sis.
dad used to be a soccer manager or is it coach.
no,its manager.
but he kindda end that jobb.
hah,in short, he LOVES soccer like his wife.
haha.
that he would rather starve than to miss a soccer match. (:
so yea, that match was his treat. (:
it was my first time watching a soccer match.
so kindda excited.
55,ooo people was there!
at Kallang Stadium.
at th atmosphere.
FUHHH!
gerekkkkkkkk gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
i was shouting and screaming haha
just joining in th crowddd.
gerek gilaaa oi tengok bola.
NAK TENGOK LAGI!(:

it was a tough match actually.
singapore got SO MANY chances to score but i guess LUCK wasnt on their side so
th ball just roll away inches away from th goal post.
it always happens tau!
like more than 5 times!
singapore could hae scored alot.
hah,but yea.
accept reality.
b t w, vietnam send some kindda weak people to play,i guess.
they just waste time la oi.
bila Singapore tackle kan abeh jtuh 2-3 min baru bangun.
or when th medic came right suddenly wahhh! can stand alrd uhhh!
padahal kat tengah field macam nak mati.
DRAMA MUCH?
apa da.
then kann, got one la da nak habis game.
like lay flat on th field, vietnam player la.
he just fall tauu,then lay in th middle of field.
haha,then we all just screm,
"PLAY ON! PLAY ON!"
haha!
then that poor vietnam player lay in th middle,tak treated oi.
mum was like,
"refereee da tak kuasa nak layan.
Vietnam asyik jatuhh ajaa,drama la!"
(refereee lazy to entertain because Vietnam everytime fall only,darma la!)
haha!
then a few minutes later agaknya da penat kan, he just stand up with help of i d k who (:
haha.
thennn, Vietnam.
like last 2 mins i think go substituition.
like nonsense like that!
waste time ajaaa,
abeh goalkeeper pun samer!
da dapat bola abeh step la hurt,okeh maybe dia hurt.
abeh he just hold on to th ball.
WASTE TIME! (:
haaaah!
geram ni! ;D
tapi tak pa.
nanti dorang lawan thilanddd kaaan?
TRASHED GILAAA RABAK NYA LA! ;D
haha! (:

aku SUKA jersey 16!
DANIEL MARK BENNET!
that my eyes just got glued to him! (:
or however you spell it!
and number 8!
Alam Shah! (:
outstanding oi diaaaa! :D
*melts!

okeh enuff about th AFF Suzuki cup.
but i cant stop bragging about it. D:

whatever.

haha.
anw, before that went to mum recognition day (:
at Golden Landmark Hotel.
just like any other recognition ceremony la
took loads of pictures.
update them soon.
SOOOOOON! :D

oh andddddd.
on saturday.
my mum,dad sis and aunt and meeee!
went to Changi beach.
for beachinggg th whole day! ;D
it was a simple one where we just brong mats and xtra clotes
plus toiletaries! :D
kindda troublesome bringing tent.
and if we were to bring
i dont think so we will put it up like very very fast.
because the wind is blowing against us! :D
but it was nice.
my hair, they just dance with th breeze, sexy huh?
okeh no.
sound so wrong. :D
had fun playing in th water.
catching waves.
then i came up with an idea.
which was stupid(?)
haha.
i couldnt think of anything else.
because th idea was way much better than to play in water and swim.
so i told my sister to jump with me when th wave comes(:
so its like bouncing on water sort of thing(?)
haha.
get me?
okehhh.
did that th whole time.
well almost.
dad join us.
then after MUCH MUCH beggibg.
mum joins us too!
then after that.
there's big ship passing by.
and dad came out with an idea.
whoa!
another idea! (:
a n w.
dad suggest we turn to th beach and lay flat on th water and face in th water.
when a BIG wave come and just stay there until it swept euu to shore.
haha!
so dad was like
"HANNA! HERE COMES A BIG ONE! GET READY! ONE TWO...( all in positions alrd!)"
haha!
excited uhh my dad!(:
haha!
yea,its very funnnnnnn! :D
i went home all reddddddddd!
and i burnt my skin.
not all.
my left arm only.
weirdddd.
haha! ;D
so yea,im kindda tann.
and th skin on my face is peeling off!
and it looks funny,like i have some skin problems.
then after all th peeling..
YAY NEW SKIN! :D
haha!

im going out tmr!
yay-nessss!
andddd also Fridayy(:

holidays are not so boring after all aye? ;D

i dont feel you when im with you.
i just want you back like how we used to be.

but i cant force love can i?
we shall see what will happen then.

as promised,











and my forever lover,










and so those are th photos as promised.
i d k what th heck is happening with my life right now.
its really kindda sickening.
doing th same thing everyday.
and other stuffs.

sister is bugging me to promote her blog.
so go there yea.
its on my link.
the VERY LONG name,thats her! (:
and she has a MAJOR crush on Liam Hess.
she says fan or later got controversy.
okeh whatever.

i did nothing but stalk my sister today.
even when she bathes.
i stood outside the toilet!
haha,i swear she was so scared that she threw a wet undergarment to th door.
haha, hilarious.

shafiq returns from his course after 3 weeks.
like finally.
its a good thing im patient.
i caaaan wait thaaaat long.
haha(:
why?
because im a super good girl.
EH!
since been long since i used that.

okeh im being ultra random today.
haha.
im coming to school tmr.
haha, to collect my IC.
i wonder if it will be kecohhhh.
what am i talking anw. (:

i've been watching a gazillion movies this holidays.
okeh not literally.
i watched Angus,Thongs and Perfect Snogging lately.
like yesterday?
its kindda niceeee.

sister is bugging me to finish blogging fast.
hahh.
i want to dragggggg timeee.
okehhh no la,
im gonna let this dragg on any loonger.

toodlessss~

today is a very very very very very very tiring day. ;D
haha.

very early in th morning,i woke up.
okeh no, i woke up at 7 in th morningg.
because mum said,we're going to sister's new school
to get her books because mum had some kind of i d k exam later in th afternoon,
so yea, we have to go there earlyyyyyy. (:
i felt weird there,like really really weird because my sister kan sekolah madrasah,so
she wears th tudung and i dont wear, so i feel kindda weird laaa.
ehh not kindda, really really really weirddddddd of somesort! ;D
went for breakfast and homeee we go!

thennnnnnn,
mum rushes for her exam while my sister go catch a nap and me, i went YOUTUBE-inggg.
woke sister up at 1:30 to get ready to get to suntec,mum's meeting us there. ;D
got readyyy and out we go! ;D
since we took 97 there, its a super duper freaking long journey to kill time,
because mum's exam ends at 3 i guess.
got th bus at ard 2:15? haha, cam-whored with sister in th bus.

thennnnnn,
just when we reach th convention centre, or is it the mall?
whatever.
met mum at i d k which tower and mum went off to Parklane Mall for her facial.
me and my sister,we get somefood,and walk there,to Parklane mall.
very very very very very very very nicee y'know!

at parklane, we waited for mum to finish her facial.
we got tired fo waiting, so we went to Macdonalds and grab a bite.
not really,
we got ourselves ice creaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam!
*screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms! ;D
talk things over,then waited for mum again.
took a few videos.
haha, we challenged each other to who can hold
the oil control film between our nose and lips area there and took a video of it.
one word, hilarious! ;D
took 97 homeeee! ;D
and here i am,

pictures come later!
mum is bugging me to sleeep!

first thing's first,yea? ;D
upload photos taken during th BBQ! ;D
then i talk a little. and rant a little something.
pictures first aite?











and this is me! ;D
haha!
didnt take alot of pictures as i have to leave early.
andddd, i kindda got engrossed to BBQ-inggg! ;D
haha!
ohhh, and look closely to th picture of mine, my eyes look brown(?)
haha! ;D
okehhh, i wasnt wearing contacts okehh! ;D
the BBQ ehh.
uhm.
it was kindda,disastrous,or should i say____.
haha.
but it was funn,though not many came.
whatever.
i left for home at 9:30, as i very very very very the scared to walk at my neighbourhood
lateeeeee at night.
haha.
i took 197 home and alighted a stop before th interchnage and walk inside to my block.
pretty creepy. haha.
i swear my heart was beating extra super fast oi! ;D
i reach home ard 11:30. ;D
LOOOONG BUS RIDES alone was the best! :D
serious!

th day after,i fall sick.
okeh,it was yesterday.
my fever was HIGHHHHHH!
and i still got th heart to watch Eiffel... Im in love! ;D
haha!
im in love with th movie.
haha.
i took 2 panadols befre calling shafiq,and after a GREAT dissapointment,
i snuggle in my bed to sleep.
but i cant really sleep,because i d k.
its like dissapointing la.
and my fever burnt my pillow,so it was uncomfortable to sleep! ;D
haha,serious! ;D
i got better today.
but FLU came!
danggggggggg!
so here i am, typing, withstand-ing the galleons of th goooeyyyy liquid in my nose.
disgusting huh?
okeh,i go blow.

its easier said than done,yknow.
i thought doing it everynight,will cheer euu up or at least make euu smile.
but i was definately wrong.
it was leceh for euu,kan.
that's what euu said.
im not mad at euu.
but just hurt,and dissapointed.
i just want to screaaaaam at euu last night.
but i hold back,because i know,im in no position to tell euu off.
maybe euu dont even miss me kan?
maybe calling euu everynight was such a hassle.
maybe i am just attracting attention.
you know what.
i'll do as euu told.
i wont bother euu until next week.
that's what euu want kan?
then i shall not bother.
i swear i would miss you.
but that's what euu want.
if that makes euu happy then,yea.
i'll do it.
i dont even know euu anymore.
is it me?
is it you?
who?
im like so far away from euu.
so damn far. DAMN FAR.
i dont even know how to talk to you anymore.
i dont even know who to tell my problems to.
i dont even know who to tell my stories to.
i dont know who to seek for attention.
i dont know who you are now.
maybe things will get better soon.
but i swear,this whole 2 weeks or maybe 3.
has been HELL for me,i swear.
just this time.
euu really hurt me badly.

I need to talk with you again
Why did you go away
All that time together
This feels like yesterday
I never thought I'd see
A single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose

I MISS MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ ANAK RUSLI!
faham ke tidak? :D

my sis says im such a sweet girlfriend
to say I MISS MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ ANAK RUSLI
on every post.
then she sigh,
"if th guy doesnt appreciate you, i dont know what to say"
haha! ;D
now she's beeing sweet.

i ROT at home today.
because my sister went to i d k what outing la. :D
so im kindda alone at home.
in the morningggggggg,
i went to th market with my nenek! :D
haha.
we bought breakfast.
and nenek actually wants to buy chicken to cook for dinner.
but the store close,because its a monday.
so monday usually the market close mahh.
so nenek suddenly shout.
"MASAK KARI TELUR NAK TAK?"
(cook egg curry want or not?) :D
i shock la. then i also shout back! haha.
"NAAAAAAAAK LA!"
(want laaaa!)
haha!
then my nenek told me to not shout.
then i start argueing with her that she started first. :D
then got like fogging thingy at this block la.
then at th void deck got a gazillion cockroaches
then i keep on jumping here and there.
trying veryvery hard to avoid the cockroaches.
haha.
then i scream a bit and hole my nenek scarf.
then she also scream!
because she thought got cockroach land on her scarf! :D
hahahahah! :D
then she like panic gilaaaa.
cute!
went home then have breakfast with atuk and nenek! :D
then went inside room.

i thought of watching some movies.
then i ask one guy, online on MSN what movie to watch.
then he go give me a whole list.
then he suddenly mudge me and said.
"TENGOK FLYBOYS!CERITA DIA BEST GILA!"
(watch flyboys,the movie very very good!)
so me, being a good girl,
i go watch FLYBOYS.
and the guy betul kau! ;D
FLYBOYS gerekkkkk ceritanyaaaaaaaaaaaa!
all about pilots.
alaaa~
go watch la!
its best! ;D

OH!
did i tell you i found my lenses.
on the floor of my room! ;D
its harddd alrd! :D
hahahahah!
and i really clean them today! :D

IM GOING OUT TMR! :D
YAY!
hahahah!
im just accompanying Sofia to th airport :D
finally kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?
then kaaaaaan,i happy la. :D

i really miss my boyfieeeee D:
awwwee~
th agony of missing some one.